“Career Suicide.” I don’t know why I can’t stop listening to this song. When I first got my hands on the Cliks’s Dirty King record, this song was one that I usually skipped over in favor of the two tracks immediately following it, “Love Gun” and “We Are the Wolverines.”
Tonight, I went to bed early. I have this nasty cough brewing really deep in my chest that I know was given to me by one of the ruddy, snotty, unwashed, walking germs I came in contact with at the mall over Black Friday weekend. It hasn’t gotten up into my throat yet, thankfully, so I’ve been able to largely ignore it. Still, I thought it wasn’t a bad idea to get some extra rest to help fight off whatever’s lying in wait.
MAJOR FAIL.
I woke up at midnight. Midnight! Two and a half hours of sleep, and I’m wide awake. I’ve done everything I can think of to try and force myself to go back to sleep. Wine, reading obscure Wikipedia articles, writing quick emails and messages to people I haven’t talked to in a while. Nothing’s working. Of course, I have been listening to “Career Suicide” on repeat since I woke up, because I woke up with the song stuck in my head. I woke up practically singing it aloud. Quite random.
Whenever this happens, I can usually find a connection on some deep level of consciousness that explains why my brain is screaming random, seemingly forgotten songs at me. Sometimes it’s just that I realize that I really like a song more than I thought, which is true here, for sure. Then again, there aren’t any songs by The Cliks that I don’t like. Except maybe “Emily.”
I just thought that this one was a little odd. I literally haven’t heard it in months. I guess I’m making up for lost time; iTunes says 34 plays.
The lyrics (written by Lucas Silveira):
So, you’ve come
Look down, my angel eyes
Hold my gun
My heart can’t recognise home
And you’ll say run
I think I heard you come undone
You lose your way
I know I can’t feel that way
You say shut up
Don’t let it shine
I’ll take your heart if
You take mine
Break down in defence
To your consequence
Break down to the sound
I know I hear it now
What’s on your mind?
What’s on your mind?
You say shut up
Don’t let it shine
I’ll take your heart if
You take mine
Break down in defence
To your consequence
Break down to the sound
I know I hear it now
I know I hear it now
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Thoughts? Ideas? Interpretations? Fist to my jaw? Ambien?
December 1st, 2010 at 12:26 pm
Ambien, or something like.
Great post. I have yet to listen to The Cliks, or I have and did not know it.
In regards to your sleep issues, If you have issues falling asleep, staying asleep and all the above, you can try a few things. I only know this from 10 years of insomnia. At the worst, I would go a whole week without sleep. Suckfest.
Exercise? It does help me, but if you can, do it in the am. If you work out late, it takes your body that much longer to calm down. For me anyway.
Melatonin- Herbal, supposedly helps that natural stuff that helps you sleep. Never worked for me. I just could
not shut of my brain.
Benadryl- You may not know this, but all otc sleep aides have the same ingredient. Diphenhydramine (I think) which if I remember correctly, is all like Benadryl. It worked now and then for me, but in the end I was up to several B’s a night, and apparently, if you take too much, it can act like speed. Lovely.
I am currently on a generic form of Ambien, 10mg, along with a few other medications. My insomnia seems to have
subsided, but it always comes back to haunt me now and then.
You can try bendzos, but I highly don’t recommend it. Unfortunately they work AWESOME in the beginning, but then you end up building up a tolerance, and need more and more to have it work. I know first hand that Xanax is one of the worst. I was taking it for sleep roughly 4 years ago, not prescribed, and the person I was getting them from ran out. After not having them for three days, I started what I call “twitching” in and out of consciousness while bartending. I thought it was do to no sleep, but on the fourth day, I went to the ER and had a Grand Mal seizure while talking with the Dr. Thank God I was in the right place!
I know it was due to benzdo withdrawal.
Good for now and then, but not for a extended period of time.
So, you know I am not a Dr, and different things work for different people. This is just my experience over the past 10 years. Hope this helps my friend!